Friday, December 9, 2011

presently...

You couldn't really tell I was pregnant before last week. 

Now I have a little star-bellied sneech tum. And I love it so much. 

I've had a few people tell me it looks like I'm carrying pretty low and how that usually means there's a little boy inside. 
Our appointment is next week and hopefully we'll find out if that's true!
I recently started doing prenatal yoga. I never ever, ever exercise so I'm hoping this will be good for both the health of me and little crying's and the delivery. 

Chas and I are still praying every night that doors will be made open for us to be able to pay for little cryings on our own, without insurance. 
We still feel confident that everything will work out somehow. 

I've also been praying and trying to actively look for ways to serve others. 
I really want to be able to step outside myself and my little life of comfort and make connections and help others. But sometimes I don't know where to start, especially when everyone else around me seems fine and dandy as well. 
I'm still on the look out. 

I had a really great, long convo with one of my sisters recently. 
In a lot of ways, it felt like an answer to prayer. 
We talked about lots of different things, but all of them were valuable, important topics.
I came away from that conversation grateful for a chance to really connect with my sister. 
I had an increased resolve to set aside past hurts and exercise real forgiveness, compassion, and empathy for others. 
And we talked about how it's so easy to get caught up in yourself: how you look, what you're doing with your life, what you love, how others might perceive you. And how when you're so focused on yourself, you simply don't have the time and energy to look outward and extend yourself towards others.
I want to be able to slowly free myself from all the "me, me, me" so I can stretch out a hand, offer a genuine smile, and give real love to the people around me. 

14 comments:

Kendra said...

This is so sweet, congratulations again!
PIECE OF CAKE. PEACE OF MIND.

Tunes & Spoons said...

i dont even know what star bellied sneech tum means, but i love it! when you do feel back up to it, we'd love to see some pictures of that tum!

service is a glorious thing, it does wonders for the soul. i hope you find someone to help soon, especially at this time of year. there are so many opportunities.

Unknown said...

i think all of your readers are so excited to meet little cryings!!! I include myself in that generalization :)

Alison said...

Ok, first of all- I love your Star-bellied Sneech reference! That was my favorite story when I was little!
Second, you should be commended for looking for ways to serve others. I was feeling the same way a few years ago- wanting to break out of my nice neat little comfort zone. I ended up working at a local charity organization that pus on after school programs for homeless and underpriviledged children, and it has been one of the best experiences of my life!

Emily said...

I am loving these last few posts! As a cousin, I feel like I don't get to hear enough of what you're doing and how you're feeling about stuff, so this hits the spot for me. :)
Can't wait to see your little sneech tummy on the 18th!! :D I am so thrilled for you and Chas!

Ruthie Hart said...

Show us some bump pics!

Emma Frances said...

I love your Dr. Seuss reference!! :) I can't wait to see your adorable tummy! And you are a truly Inspiring person!

Caitlin said...

I always loved the Sneetches!

Glad you're getting into a better place my love. I'm sure everything will work out for you guys. <3

Jessica said...

Congrats on your pregnancy! I'm pregnant too :) I think we are about on the same timeline. I'm due May 16 with a little boy :)
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Emily said...

I can't tell you how happy I am for you and your Little Cryings!

Just a thought when you said you were looking to serve others:
One thing I'm going to begin after Christmas is sponsoring a child through Compassion. It's about $40 a month and you get to send letters to your child and receive some too! My mom sponsors a little boy from Ghana and he is so adorable and sends such sweet letters with drawings of random things. It's so rewarding!
Anyway just a thought.
The site is www.compassion.com just in case you or someone you know is interested. Sometimes money is an issue, but if God really lays it on your heart, he will ALWAYS provide a way! :)

Anonymous said...

Sam, you are so inspiring. I really appreciate your outlook on life and how you value doing the right thing all the time. I love to read your blog.

Jenny said...

i have two words for you: baby sitting :) Everyone appreciates free babysitting and I know you've mentioned lots of your friends have kids. They would love you forever if you gave them a night to go to the temple, do some Christmas shopping, or just go on a date!

Unknown said...

Some ideas for volunteering: nursing homes. You could do a saturday art meeting, or just go in a hang out with them. You'll learn so much about them.

Irene said...

You're a beautiful soul, Sam. Excited to know more about little cryings! :-)