This morning, I logged onto my site tracker. It showed a few hits coming from a particular website I'd never seen before so I clicked over. I soon had this sinking feeling that this wasn't going to be good. But I kept clicking and eventually found the source of where the visits to my blog were coming from.
I should have listened to myself.
I shouldn't have read it.
I had heard of people being hateful towards blogs/bloggers but hadn't experience it for myself.
Now I've experienced it.
I actually found myself really questioning this blog for the first time and what it's all about.
So, in an effort to remind myself, I feel like I need to get some thoughts down to help me process and get past the ugliness.
I've had a blog for years now.
When I was married to my first husband, I had a blog.
When I was going through my divorce and single again, I had a blog.
Now I have this blog.
Blogging has been a positive experience for me in many, many ways.
I've written more about the reasons why I blog here.
One thing that I've always tried to uphold in my blogging is honesty.
So when I write about how wonderfully happy my life is with my husband, that's because it's the truth. That's not to say that things are perfect. Only that things are very happy. After going through a horrible divorce, happiness in a marriage is something that I firmly believe should be honored and celebrated. That's what I've been doing from Day 1 on this blog. Writing posts about enjoying a happy, healthy marriage helps me to focus on gratitude and appreciation. I never want to take my marriage or Chas' goodness for granted.
Along with the love and silliness that goes on around here, I also feel like it's important for me to write about ways I'm striving to become a better human.
Getting divorced taught me important lessons.
Earning a Master's degree taught me important lessons.
Being an art therapist teaches me important lessons.
Being a college professor teaches me important lessons.
Trying to be a good partner in marriage teaches me important lessons.
I write about these things because it helps to solidify those lessons in my mind and heart.
And the Young People Style posts?
I'm the first person to make fun of us for doing those. They are pretty crazy and super cheesy.
But they're also pretty fun to do together.
...I was going to write more but I think I'll wrap up here.
I guess at the end of the day, it doesn't matter what other people think.
I didn't start this blog for other people.
We all learn from experience.
If you haven't experienced something, I can see how it'd be easy to misunderstand someone with a different life experience and paradigm.
So I don't need to fault others for misunderstanding me, my blog, or my marriage.
I can let others hold their own opinions whether those opinions are positive, negative, or somewhere in between.
Those opinions don't have to affect me unless I chose to let them.
And I'm not going to do that.