Wednesday, May 2, 2012

waiting

I've done my last day of working at the hospital. 
I finished all my grading yesterday. 

And now the transition from working girl to mommy girl has officially begun. 
This will be the first time I haven't worked since I was probably fifteen years old.
(Although I do hope to continue teaching just once a week and filling in at the hospital a bit starting in the fall.)

But for a while at least, my only job will be little cryings. 
How glorious.

All that's left to do before she comes is baby showers. 
(First one- my work shower- is today!)

As for Chas and I, we are spending lots of time relaxing and snugging. 
Sometimes we just lay in bed quietly together. 
There isn't always much to say. And that's ok. 

We've already discussed the same things many times: 
wondering what she'll look like. 
how I hope she has his eyelashes. 
how our relationship will change. 
how much fun we're gonna have with her. 
how I'll wake up Chas in the morning by standing her on his chest and then sitting her on his head.
how we'll have to share her and take turns holding her. 
how I'll take a blanket outside and have some summer yard time with her. 
how soon she'll be here. 

It's fun to talk about all this again and again. But now, for the most part, I think we're just in a place of calm, resigned waiting.

We're waiting for our lives to suddenly and forever change in just one day. 

We're waiting for her. 

11 comments:

Summer Inc said...

Awww... This is such a cute post! I love it!

Your waiting will be over very soon! So excited for you. I have no doubt you two will be awesome parents! :)

Nessa @{Casa Braaflat} said...

beautiful post. i remember those calm days. enjoy it! but it only gets better.

Kendra // The Darling Blog said...

Aw, this is sweet! Don't take any of those early days for granted - they pass way too fast :)

Maria said...

This is SUCH a cute post! I cannot wait to meet her.

Kylie said...

This is beautiful. I love it!

Kari said...

Sam, I am so very excited for you! I'm feeling very nostalgic this month as last year this time, I was playing the "waiting game," too. I would wake up every morning thinking, "This is the the day I will have my baby." Even though Adam came 2 weeks over due and everyone thought I was crazy for not wanting to be induced, I'm so glad I let him come when he was ready. I had a very vivid dream the other night in which I felt a baby kicking in my stomach and when I remembered the dream randomly in the middle of the day, I was hit with such a gush of emotion. The tears flooded my eyes in an instant and I could barely stand...I had forgotten that feeling. That feeling of having Adam live inside me. In that moment, I remembered it so perfectly, so clearly and felt so grateful for those 10 months I had to carry him. I hope you may continue to enjoy this last little bit of carrying your baby--there's nothing like it!

wildchild said...

waiting always seems like the hardest part. but i'm glad you guys are enjoying it :) summer with sweet little baby girl is going to be the best.

Jenna said...

Aaahhh! I'm so excited for you!

Erin said...

"There isn't always much to say. And that's ok." Perfection. :)

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I'm Sydney. said...

She's coming so soon! I can't wait for you guys to meet her and learn all about her!

Candice said...

LOVE this!! I don't know if I could be any more excited for you guys!!!