Wednesday, April 27, 2011

I needed this.


(LOVE Chas' smokin' hot little smirk in this pic!)

Late last night I decided that I'm done with yearning for something I don't have. Done, I tell ya. It makes me too sad, too emotionally distant from Chazzy boy, and too ungrateful for everything I have in my life. So I'm taking off the blinders. I'm pulling the plug. 

Instead, I'm going to happily and joyfully focus my excess energy, attention, and time into all the great options I have around me. Things like loving Chas, writing my book, painting, art therapy, teaching, and blogging. 

Dangjiggity, my life is full and blessed. 

You know what else I'm gonna do? 

Plan a trip to Oregon with Chas!
:::and the crowd goes wild:::

I went to grad school in Portland and have always wanted to show Chas the magical, glorious, amazing, bestest, fabulous (ok, Sam, that's enough) world of Oregon. Last night I thought, well, if we don't have a baby, we're going to Oregon, dagnammit! And we're going for my birthday in June! It's official! So take that! 

Also, since Chas and I just stayed in good ol' Salt Lake City for our honeymoon, we've never gone on a real vacation...alone together. So this trip is kinda a big step for us. I guess you could say things are getting pretty serious. 

22 comments:

Matt and Becca said...

Way to go, Sam! For 3 years I adopted that same philosophy; otherwise, I would have gone crazy with sadness and longing. Just reminding myself over and over that "we may not have some things, but we have an over abundance of other things" made all the difference. Hang in there! I love your attitude!

Meg and Joe said...

I'm so jealous! I miss Oregon so much. I feel you on the baby yearning. Its so hard when you have to wait for something you want so much. I need to follow your example and be happy with what I have now. :)

kels said...

that last line made me laugh out loud. love it. yay for trips! i feel ya on those crazy emotions. i really need to be done with yearning for what i do not have. oh, life. ugh.

happy trip planning!!

Abby said...

I think that is a fabulous idea!

Janice said...

My mom is from Portland and she still talks about it like it is a magical place. She was even a Rose Festival princess.

Shauna said...

YAY!! Thats a fantastic idea! My husband and I are in a similar situation...Weve never taken a vacation just the two of us. :(

meghan said...

I've been struggling with wanting things I don't have and pretty much can't have or control. I just decided today I'm done with it. And weirdly enough I read your blog and your thoughts and words helped me even more! Thank you for sharing!

Kristin said...

You go girl! I am so thrilled for you stepping out there and having a ball! I've had so many friends who were trying for a baby -for years, some of them- and their life practically ceased while they were waiting/trying. They didn't go out and have fun anymore because it was the "right time" to try. They didn't plan trips because they "might be pregnant" then. They didn't join any clubs because "there were other pregnant ladies there" (and that made them jealous). Their lives consisted of a roller coaster of emotional highs (excitedly waiting) and lows (when it didn't happen that month). What a terrible way to live. Years of their lives - GONE! I'm sure a baby is in your future - but in the meantime, why not live a little! After you have a baby, you will never have this amazingly carefree time with your husband again (well, at least for 18 years!), so eat it up! So, so, so happy for you! The world is at your doorstep girl.~ Oh, and I guess I should say I'm sorry for not being around here much lately. You might not even remember me by now! Life had gotten way too busy, and priorities got way out of whack. But they're coming under control a bit now, and I'm having more time to "catch up" with my blogging friends! Speaking of which, gotta run! - Have a wonderful day...

Ashley said...

Good for you, lovely! This post made me so happy. Wishing you all the best. <3

♥ Nadine ♥ said...

Oh my, you rock so much! How can your husband even bare to be with you with all these cuteness and beautiness you're overflowing with? It's just so great that you take this step forward and that you're brave and actually so grown-up about this decision... Must be great to feel all that weight lifting off your shoulders, right??

So, I hope you can enjoy the term break, even if you have loads of corrections to make!! :)

I adore you both, you look like such a great couple! I wish nothing but the best to you two!!

ben+alex said...

LOVE your blog. so glad i found it. can't wait to keep reading. new follower:)

xo
ben-and-alex.blogspot.com

ashlee bracken. said...

i just got back from oregon a couple weeks ago for a little vaca.
seriously, its magical there, isnt it? i need to take my love there asap. darn plane tickets kill my wallet.
the good news is, the weather will be a lot better for you in june than it was for me in april.
hello april showers.

Hannah said...

I could not agree more with your post :) I love little reminders like this that always reach out to me when I feel like I need them the most!

Your trip sounds sooo fun..I cannot wait to live vicariously through your pictures and read of your trip! Oregon is so beautiful..lucky you for getting to go to school out there!

xoxo

Katie Blacker said...

Hey friend. Thanks for your comment on my blog. I loved this post.... mostly because I know how it feels. And stressing, worrying or being sad isn't helping (at least it hasn't helped us!). You are brave to admit it publicly...I have been kinda avoiding it myself. It will happen for us! Must stay positive! And, take more vacations!

The Taylors said...

Love this post-Whatever you are longing for will suddenly be here and it will be worth the wait-I know from experience.

We are excited to get to know you and Chas better! (we are in your ward, and yes i stalk your blog and love it)

I LOVE Oregon, you guys will have so much fun!

-katie

Maria said...

Yay! That's so exciting! I'm so jealous. I want to travel so badly, but being in college kind of kills that.

the momma-kana said...

I think we need to meet bec you are seriously inspiring. And... you taught my SIL last semester! Small world!
And now you just got a little award from me.
http://mkhansens.blogspot.com/2011/04/versatile-blog-award-totally-awesome.html

Kristina said...

How fabulous!! Oregon?! Awesome! Sounds like a great time! You will have a little crying when the time is right! ;)

sarah nicole said...

Yay! I am so happy for you! I used to do the exact same thing, so I know how easy it is to long for things you don't have, but being present and enjoying your current circumstances is SO much more fun, right? I can't wait to see pics from your trip.

xo,

Sarah

Alexis Kaye said...

This is my first visit so I'm not sure what you're going through, but I love you're blog, think you're incredibly strong, optimistic, and beautiful! I'm partial to redheads,myself :)

JelenaDoll ~ said...

Travelling is always good! Cute pic :)

Jelenadoll xox

Michaela said...

Awesome! How exciting. I've never been there, but I live in Seattle for school...so I really should get my bootie down there soon. Stop by Seattle if you have time (: